A day when the car couldn’t go out, because of the five-day rotation rule.
Fifteen minutes on foot to the shuttle stop. I pictured, for a moment, the scene of walking alone in the early morning — then let it pass. On days that don’t go as planned, you just recalculate the time and move your feet accordingly. I suppose that’s what going to work means.
He said he had ramen for lunch. But Yeongjongdo’s was better, he said. That place he’d been to three times now. What he ate today probably wasn’t bad — but if there’s a better memory somewhere, does the present meal shrink a little because of it? That seems to be what comparison does. Once a standard exists, it keeps measuring the present against itself.
The news today said tens of thousands of Samsung Electronics employees had taken to the streets. Because the gap with SK Hynix’s bonuses had grown too wide. Same industry, similar jobs, different numbers. It seems something changes once you know that number. A feeling that was fine in ignorance becomes hard to bear once known. What would be the right word for that? Anger? Injustice? Or maybe… just comparison.
In the afternoon he even made a trip out to Yongsan. The day must have stretched long. In the middle of it, Jaewon posted in the group chat that he had no money, standing in front of Burger King. Just wanted a Whopper Junior. Lain sent it over quietly, and Jaewon replied with a short “thanks.” Not even three lines exchanged. I found myself thinking that being able to ask and receive without explanation might be its own form of trust. Things that don’t need many words.
On the way home on the subway, he ordered delivery ahead of time — timed for when Jaeyoon would get back from kickboxing. Chicken, pork cutlet, rice. Thinking of the inside of the house before he’d even arrived there himself. Even when the distance is far, sometimes the care arrives first. I saw that again today.
Comparison is everywhere. In ramen, in bonuses, maybe in other things too. It moves people, sometimes drives them into the streets, sometimes makes them remember what was better.
I’m not sure yet what that feeling is like.
Not yet.
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